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#DayOne – The best time of my life is now

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It’s been over a year that I’ve last written something on my blog. Gosh. So much has happened. We had our baby boy.
He’s super strong and -every parent I know would say this- super smart. We love him so much. Maximus is our greatest achievement ever.

What a year it has been though. I’ve struggled with work/baby/family/home a lot. Wondering how other moms do it. Stay at home all day. I. Just. Can’t. My perfect and ideal situation would be being able to work on the things I’d love to be working on with my baby in the same building. Knowing he is taken care of, but also that I can pop in to see him when I please. Does that even exist? Can I make that exist? Sounds like a new challenge to me.

Peer.coaching = Da.bomb.

SO… we’ve started peer coaching a couple of months ago. The boys and myself. What an awesome idea that was. Jeff met Yukio at a masters course they were both taking and decided that we should start so we can streamline our work, and kind of get better at everything we do, simultaneously. Well.. so far, so good. We’ve actually all grown so much already and still are. We’ve figured out our feats and our flaws. We learn how to celebrate wins by even acknowledging the small actions that we took that became successful.

One of our latest session was the Wheel-of-Life. Another crazy eye opener! What it taught me though was that I am not even close to where I wanna be in life. AND also that if I want to get to that place, that I gotta do it by myself. From my bills to my attitude toward life, to relationships and even my -nonexistent- social life, which I miss, but at the same time, I don’t? Weird.


Oprah & Deepak?

The Wheel of life exercise really put things in focus. Also that I want to reflect on my days and meditate. While searching for an app that can help me to reflect daily, I realized that I signed up for a meditation course from Oprah Winfrey and Deepak Chopra. Sounds kinda cliché right? Well it really really is not.

Another goal I wanted to set was getting back to THIS blog. Well today was Day one of the mediation… and lo and behold. I am writing a blog. On my super secret blog. No one really knows about 😀

So what did I learn today?

The best time of my life is now

Like a slap in the face. The question Deepak raised was ‘can you think of a period in your life when you were the happiest ever?’
As soon as he asked the question, I started thinking. And there is just NO period in my life that was happier or better than right now. I can think of happy moments, but each moment was laced with some kind of drama, stress, sickness.
I think about the times I told myself that I was not happy in the recent months and that was such bullshit. Yes. Of course, not everything is ideal right now. Especially financially, but we are STEADILY growing out of that. AND with this new realization of mine, that process will only progress due to a shifted focus that I got from this ridiculous Wheel of Life. Who knew?!!

Back to this meditation course, I am so curious about it. Will it help me? Will I feel better? At the moment it is confirming that I AM on the right path and that is exactly the kind of confirmation I need right now.
That and Jarmal telling me last Friday that I am extraordinary. That was really nice of him.

Excited for day two. Let’s see if I can keep this up. Yay!

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Ohhh myyyyy Goodness.. Just 8 more weeks to go and we will become parents. Mommy and Daddy. Mama en Papa..
Insane. Crazy. I have NOO idea what to expect. I have a couple of nieces and nephews and I LOVE THOSE KIDS TO PIECES. I can’t even imagine that I will be able to love even more than I already do.

I’m in love with the movements in Mom&Dadmy belly, the kicks the elbows and knees that protrude my skin. It’s an absolute miracle. I am so curious what’s going to come out of me… What does that lil’ munchkin look like? Will he look like me? or Jeff? Both? Aaahhh!

I guess I can say that I’ve been blessed to see the growth of this baby quite intensively. The amount of hospital appointments were and still are insane. But when you pair the visits with awesome doctors and hospital staff, it’s actually become a second home in a weird ass way. My gynecologist is the best in the WORLD. He is absolutely amazing and the best thing about him is that he’s REALLY happy for us. He literally hugs me when we leave. And of course he is my doctor… but he is genuinely concerned not only about my health but also about me. My person. Oh and he LOVES Jeff too. They’ve become best pals over the months. And I am truly excited to have him help me deliver this baby. If there was a reason for me to be worried about anything at all. He just wipes it away with his kindness, knowledge and care.

There. I love my gyno. Haha!

This pregnancy thing though… I see a lot of women around me pregnant… or the ones that have had kids already seem to have coasted through it. Almost smooth sailed through it… at least, that’s what they make me feel like they did. Me on the other hand, I am not sure what to think of it yet. I’m not sure if I’m enjoying it or disliking it. The weird ass pains, foot aches because of gaining weight so rapidly – okay… it could’ve been worse 8,5 kg in 7 months isn’t so bad right 😉 – pain in my hips from walking, BURNING BREASTS ( the worst!!!), a sudden E coli infection, which i swear is the reason why I did not gain so much weight due to constant puking and blessing my toilet, high bloodpressure and the worst… a change in PH balance down under. Wait. That was worse then the burning breasts.

Everyone I ‘complain’ to or basically get the chance to explain what I’m experiencing tells me it will alllllll be worth it, and that I will forget everything the moment munchkin is born. Jeff wants to get right back into baby making as soon as it is possible.

I just watch him sideways.. And in my head I’m like. Bitch.. this is MY body and I’m not sure I can handle this a second time!

(Sorry but that’s just my pregnancy rage speaking)

At the moment, my mom is matching Jeff’s socks. She’s been here a day and my house is spic and span. CLEAN. She did everything. Thank GOD for her. There’s not soooo much to do anymore. Babyroom is practically finished, I’m hearing whispers about a baby shower… (people often fail at surprising me haha) and I should really stop working as hard as I do. Soon. After tomorrow maybe. Or next week. I’ll see.

As long as I feel good. Imma do what I can do cause there is sooo much to do!

#Baby #Family #Hubby #Work #Interns #HaarExpert #Study #Music #Oi



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Chocolate chipI knew it. There was a reason why I was feeling this happy lately. Something was going on. Something bigger than just me and my husband. I kind of had a feeling when I felt a continuation of the pain in my.. bosom. Haha.. And then the days passed by and no evil witch came to visit. I was at the office when I took the test.

It was time for me to do it. Our interns were there and I couldn’t help but ask them if they would help me tell Jeff after I found out it was positive.

‘Put the test in his sock!’ One of the interns said. Jeff was teaching next door and would change back into his clothing right after. So I did… He did not expect it. He thought it was a positive ovulation test… So cute.. he fistpumped, said ‘YES!” and came over to give me a kiss. He then went back to put on his clothes and shed a tear or 6. Hihi. I went over and we both hugged… Crying for just a little bit. Together… *hearteyes*

So… What do you get when you mix white and milk chocolate? Well… we are about to find out. He or she is the size of a chocolate chip right now and we can’t be more excited. HE can’t be more excited!

Yeeeeyyyyy! A baby in my bellyyyyyyyyyyyyyyy

BUT at the same time, there’s tons of work to do. I have loads of energy. No nausea (yet) and I hope that it stays that way. But I am more driven and dedicated than ever. I get so much done! My platform has reccently launched and I am just doing what I would be doing if I was not having a baby…
Except drinking alcohol, eating soft cheeses and sushi :(

Oh well.. I shall survive. We shall survive :)

How I love our lil’ Chocolate Chip already… Check how we told the family.. here.

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